I miss her... I think...

I apologize ahead of time, this might get a bit angsty. I really don't like being like that, but sometimes, you have to be.

As I stated earlier, I recently broke up with Dino Hunter. Part of it was that we're much better as friends. Part of it was that she's 700 miles away. Part of it was that I was more interested than she.

I miss her. it's weird because i want to talk to her, but i can't because we're in that awkward phase of "we just broke up, and thus can't really talk about it." and thus i am left to be angsty and mope about. I really hate people who mope about because they just broke up, so I really try not to, and so I go hang out with friends, play games, try and enjoy life as much as I can.

What i really need to do is cry. I need to go ahead and cry about it, and get it out of my system. Unfortunately, my body is refusing to cry. or maybe I just need to fuckng tell her how i feel, but then if i do that i'll seem weird, pathetic, and a loser, so I refuse to go that route.

See, the issue is that before we broke up, I had been waffling about breaking up with her for like, 2 months (we dated for 5). Thus, I got what i wanted. But i also really would have liked to actually spend more time with her. I really did want it to work out.

I'm just confused, alone, and needing guidance.

*grumble and publish*